Lost in Worship

It's early on a Friday morning, but my mind is racing so I had to put my thoughts down. Apparently, God wanted me up this morning because I've been up for a couple of hours. Anyway...
Trying to read things to go to sleep have just stirred my mind up more. So here goes....

"O my people, what have I done to you? What have I done to make you tired of me?" Micah 6:3

This is God crying out to His people. Reading that made me sad, but I had to confess that in some ways I have communicated that to my God. Many of you know that I love praise and worship. But lately my heart has not been eager to worship God. Moving to Korea has meant leaving our wonderful church back home, and for a while it's been extremely hard to participate in corporate worship because I grieved for what I was missing back home. I lost the meaning of worship, and forgot that it has nothing to do with how many great singers you have, how the sound system works, or even whether people respond to it.

"I'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about You, Jesus. I'm sorry, Lord for the thing I've made it when it's all about You, Jesus."

I'm going to reread Satisfy My Thirsty Soul by Linda Dillow this next year. I need to get back to the heart of worship. Read a little bit of the book this morning and here's some things that stood out to me:

"Worship is the path to experiencing the presence of God, the way to face-to-face intimacy."

Psalm 89:15 NLT says "Happy are those who hear the joyful call to worship, for they will walk in the light of your presence, LORD."

Worship is a calling to go deeper in my relationship with my Abba. I forgot that because I was so focused on the technicalities of corporate worship, especially when you're leading others. It's all about Jesus.

"Here I am to worship, here I am to bow down, here I am to say that You're my God. You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me."

I lost the desire to worship, but praise my Lord. I think I found it again. :-)